Released 1 May 2001
Recorded and mixed at Quantum Onion Studios,
San Jose, CA
Songs composed, arranged, performed, recorded, and mixed by Amelia Ray
Cover artwork by Justin Hanks
LYRICS
Talk about your dirty old man
You got a bird in the bush, and two in your hands
Someone's on the phone crying, "We need relief,"
And all you have to offer is a measure full of grief
Everybody knows, it's the daily news,
That you're just trying to walk in your Daddy's shoes
You better heed what your Daddy cried,
"Try to wipe the dung off your boots before you step inside"
Driving everybody insane
You got greed in your eyes and war on the brain
(more money, more power)
Just to prove that you're not a heartless fool,
You do your best Marv Albert at the Cardinal rule
(marv albert, more power)
If they try to tell you that your foot's in your mouth,
You say that's the way we do it in the south
You better heed what your Daddy said,
"Don't you let the power of the press go to your head"
You better do what your Daddy did
Soon you'll be a foreign power with drunks for kids
Strange that I have never seen you break
Strange that you have never seen me take
You don't believe in everything that you hear, so
Why would you want to go and leave me standing here
When you know I just dream to watch you wake?
Standing in the hall I feel the silence of my home
I got no place for you to run away to
I guess that's why you left me alone
I just don't see how your need to be right
Can outweigh your need to feel loved
I guess it's the time
and the wrong sign
Il n'y pas de mot ici
Para explicar a ti
If you'd trust me, you would see
Il n'y pas de mot
If you knew how much I loved you
(if you knew how much I cared for you)
Would you put my mind above you
And bear all and more, unfasten,
(would you take my hand and lead me to the promised land)
To the secret of your passion
Would you feel the hand that holds you
(I can give you all that you need)
Reach down into your soul you
Have so much more to live for
(Won't you make some time with me?)
If you let me try to give your...
She get up this morning, say she don't like my florentine no more,
packs her bags and asks me can I help her at the door,
I look around, searching for strength and then I say,
No babe, I'm not gonna hurt you that way
She says "The last time I thought it was forever, I was wrong then, too,
Believe me babe, it's got nothin' to do with you,"
I make-believe that I am bigger than I am,
But I can feel her cringe when she hears the door slam
If she don't wanna be with me, I'll take her down to the ocean, I'll throw her in,
Wipe the salt from my eyes, this is the end
If she has this need to be free, I hang my head in misery
If she don't wanna be with me
She says, "Can we talk this over like rational people?"
I say "I lost all sense when I caught you creepin'
And, anyway the time for talk between us has passed,
We need to find something that will last
I'll drive you down to the beach where I can clear my head,
And maybe, if we're lucky no one will end up dead"
It seems for a minute I may let her go,
And, then I think about the spinach on the kitchen floor
If she don't wanna be with me, I'll take her down to the ocean,
I'll throw her in,
Wipe the salt from my eyes, this is the end
If she has this need to be free, I hang my head in misery
If she don't wanna be with me
She can do better, if only you let her,
She's a go-getter like loma prieta,
Just like in the movies, she'll be all she can be,
See that what she should see, but
If she don't wanna be with me, I'll take her down to the ocean,
I'll throw her in,
Wipe the salt from my eyes, this is the end
If she has this need to be free, I hang my head in misery
If she don't wanna be with me
Walking along, singing a song that I wrote for my girlfriend
Well, it seems that fall has finally come this way
I was surprised, she was obliged, asked me why I thought she should stay
And, for all my thoughts, I found I had nothing to say
You could see what's gone wrong
That my love took too long
Now it seems all I've been working for is gone
I never thought that I'd be stumbling down this road again
Well, you'd think I'd learn from all my past mistakes
But here I am I'm standing face-to-all the pretty pictures under my bed
And, inside, I hear that nasty little tremor of questions start to quake
Is it me? I don't know
Some would say she should go
'Cause I'm only going to end up saying no
They say it's not so bad to run around
But the only time I wanna be in somebody's arms
Is with my feet flat on the ground
I paid a doctor to take a camera to my brain
And analyse all the shots she took
But the negatives came out a bit too dark
And then she asked me if I would rather go
For dinner and a movie one autumn night
Or just pack a lunch and sit out in the park
Was that real? who could say?
Did she mean, "Come my way?"
Well, we'll find out over wine and cheese today
Nine minutes from now
You'll be sitting here saying, "I should be getting down"
And getting nothing done
You'll still believe that the answer will come
Looking for you, specifically,
Like some census-taker with a mission and a decree
"That's not jazz," you say and turn the tune up and tap the time away
Oh, St. John, can you help me?
I'm so lost and I can't see
Thought it was over, but it's just getting worse
Is there an end to this curse?
I'd have thought it a phase
If I had been able to get up on the 9th day and walk outside
Is it better to view the simple things that people do
Or close my eyes and try to hide?
I have watched the sun set and divide the sky
Into what I can and cannot have
Tell me why I should not cry
Oh, St. John, can you heal me?
I'm so afraid
Do you feel me?
I try to behave like I'm all that I need
Please give me something to breathe
Oh, St. John, who could save me?
Am I in need, or just lazy?
I like to believe there's a reason to exist
I guess I have a penchant for being used
I let you come around and do what you will with my blues
But, baby, that's alright
I'd rather be blue with you than happy with somebody new
You push all my buttons and tease
Test my hate and my love degrees
But, baby, that's just fine
I'd rather wait for you than play with someone in the meantime